Christmas Party

Zed and I both had appointments at Fort Campbell this morning so we went home last night. We ended up staying there and going to the company Christmas party tonight. It was nice seeing everyone and sad, too. It was sad because we were seeing everyone else's new baby and it made me miss mine. So we left at 7 and headed back to Nashville.

I dropped Zed off at the RMH because he was tired and I drove his big jacked up truck to see Wendy. Well the problem is his truck won't fit in the parking garage, so I had to park a block and a half away at a bank and walk. So yes, at 9:00 at night I walked by myself to the hospital.. The things you'll do for your baby.

Wendy's nurse didn't really have much news because the day nurses hear what the doctors say when they round and the night nurses don't. So all I got from Wendy's nurse tonight was that she had a bit of emesis earlier and so they kept her at 30mL but if she does okay with her next feeding they'll take it up to 34mL. I'm going to try to get to sleep soon so I can be up early enough to talk to Wendy's doctors.

Home Before Christmas? I Doubt It.

So apparently they're not even going to attempt to feed Wendy through her G tube for at least 2 more weeks. They're going to put another feeding tube through her nose tomorrow. It will go past her stomach, into her intestines. It has to go past her stomach because if they put food into her stomach, it will leak out around her G tube. Having a G tube put in is supposed to be a simple procedure and you should be able to use it within a few days. Unfortunately Wendy's isn't healing as quickly as it should. I really hope it eventually heals and can be used. If not, they may have to go back in and try to fix it.

The doctor said we can try to have her home by Christmas. I doubt that will happen though. Nothing else has gone easy for us, so I doubt this will either.

The more I think about Wendy, the more upset I get. It's like theres a permanent lump in my throat now. And tears that are always threatening to fall. I can't stand the thought of her being stuck in that hospital baby bed for almost 8 weeks now. And when Zed and I are there visiting her, there's only so much we can do with her because she has so many monitors and iv's hooked up to her. It breaks my heart to leave her, but you can only sit there looking at her for so long. And since she is back in the NICU at the childrens hospital we can't stay overnight with her.

I am honestly so sick of Nashville! I wish I could go home every night and drive down in the mornings and spend the day with her, but I can't. It's too expensive. And I can't go home and stay for a few days because I miss her so much. So it's a catch 22. When I am home, I just love spending time in her room! It makes me happy.

I was really hoping Wendy would be home before Christmas. I am going to keep my tree up until that baby comes home, even if she's in there several more months

A Day of Rest, Because Lord Knows I Need It

I decided to take a day to myself to rest. Zed is going to stay with Wendy and talk to the doctors. I will be driving myself back down tomorrow. I am trying to actually rest while I am here. Of course, it's a bit difficult when I really want to scrub my house from top to bottom. I'm so glad momma, Grammy, and Sherry helped me clean the week after I had Wendy. Otherwise my house would be a real mess. As it is now, I still need to vacuum and dust, but that can wait until right before Wendy comes home- I want the house to be sparkling clean when my angel arrives home for the first time!

I have decorated a little for Christmas. Last year Grammy gave me several Charlie Brown Christmas decorations (a tree, some Snoopy Christmas dolls, snow globes, etc). So I put those up. And last night when I went to Walgreens to get my Zyrtec I saw some Christmas stockings. I realized Wendy did not have a stocking and they had Snoopy ones! There were only 2 different Snoopy ones, so Zed and I have matching ones and Wendy has her own unique one. I felt really bad about not getting Peanut and Pandora one, so I will have to find them ones later, probably just plain red ones. And since we are likely to be staying here for Christmas I am going to get a fake tree soon. One with colored lights! The colored lights will match the Peanuts decorations and I'm sure Wendy will love looking at the different colors!

I really hope Wendy gets well soon! I long for her to spend Christmas in our home.